In my blog yesterday I quoted the book, “Crazy Love,” where Francis Chan asks if your concern is more about going to Heaven, or more about loving Jesus. He also asks if we love God who gives us everything, or if we only love the stuff that God gives us. One more thing that he says is if you merely pretend that you enjoy God or love Him, He knows. You can’t fool Him, don’t even try. These questions really hit home with me. I put a lot of though into these questions and realized that my concern is more about going to Heaven, and that I do love the stuff that Gods give me more than I love God, and I can’t hide that fact from God.
I want to love God more, and I want to love Jesus more. Francis Chan suggests in his book that people like me need to pray for God to change my heart. So, I have incorporated this into my fasting. I will now be praying that God will change my heart, and my attitude, so that I can learn to love Him above anything else.
Today is day 3 for my Daniel Fast, and I am craving everything but fruit and veggies. I was at the Mall of America with the kids today and walked by the Subway (for the record I don’t like Subway) and I smelled the fresh baked bread, along with the fresh baked pizzas from the Pizza Villa across the hall. I was so close to throwing my fasting right into the toilet. I am already thinking of all the wonderful things that I will be able to eat again after Easter. But than I thought of something that really helped me. If Jesus can suffer death of the cross for my sins, than the least that I can do is suffer for 3 weeks of only eating fruits, vegetables, and nuts.
In closing, I will keep fasting for the next 2 ½ weeks, and I will learn to be closer to God than I have ever been before. God is working in my life, but it is happening in His time and not mine, and as long as I can persevere, in the end God will be glorified which is the reason for human existence.
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